I mentioned last week that I started going to a ladies Bible study at church. That in itself is a miracle as I normally shy away from people I don't know but I felt the Lord's prompting and so I went. I was thankful that I had.
This morning was the second meeting and I admit that I felt quite apprehensive about going. I was a bit lightheaded and my heart was racing. I prayed and sang praise songs in the car on the way and I made it.
I was quieter this week than last week. Some of the ladies shared some of the struggles that they either are dealing with or have experienced. I struggled whether or not to share and almost did but we ran out of time. I thought I would have a sense of relief but I did not.
The verses that stood out the most to me are 2 Corinthians 1:3-5.
Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort those who are in any trouble, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God. For as the sufferings of Christ abound in us, so our consolation also abounds through Christ.
There is great risk in sharing. Would they see me differently? Would they understand? And would I be afraid?
It is far easier to share in writing than in person. I am a writer and not a public speaker. My sharing comes at great cost to me but my desire is to share how much God has turned what was meant to be bad into something very good.
But is it fair to burden others with what happened? I know what the "answer" would be is that as the church we are to bear one another's burdens Still, I am uncertain what to do.
God does make all things new but that does not make the suffering go away. I do not know what each day will bring ~ how I will feel ~ but I do know that God's grace is sufficient for me.